Catching yourself in the act
I'm not sure if this is something that a majority of us experience, but i have never heard about this from any one else. Recently I have been realizing that the difference between who I want to be or who I am in my head and the person I am in real life, the person other people perceive me as is quite big. I'm sure that's the case with lot of us but I'm able to see kinda where that delta is appearing. As this is happening I have become ever so slightly more aware of my actions and the consequences of those actions. I can see what I should be doing, what my ideal self in my head would be doing in this situation isn't what I'm doing. I'm scared or I'm traumatized or I'm shy or I'm under-confident or I'm cowardly or I doing think I can deliver to match the expectations. Whatever the reason I give myself, I usually back down from taking that action that my ideal self would take. But recently, when I realize this is happening and I'm not taki...